pp. 234-235

The next night the spirit of the depths tells Carl to write down as accurately as possible all of the dreams that he can remember.

Carl admits to his soul that he knows too much not to recognize the precariousness of the path ahead. "Where are you leading me?" he asks with trepidation, before conceding, "This hour belongs to you" [p. 235]. Still, he hesitates, questions, complains about what this costs him.

Trusting his dreams as the speech of his soul means surrendering to what holds meaning, not for him, but for his soul. It means leaving behind his familiar ways of thinking and understanding, and treading into the other half of the world, which to the spirit of the times seems like madness, nonsense and disorder. To the spirit of the depths, it is simply true meaning.

Despite apprehension and doubt at his world being turned upside-down, Carl follows, knowing he is following the footsteps of God.

Because Carl is not childlike, the spirit of the depths tells him, God comes to him as a child, capricious and disorderly. It is from this disorder and meaninglessness that order and meaning will arise. Carl is plunged deeper into the marriage of opposites.

He sees the irony and injustice of offering his love and trust to his fellow men and not to his own soul—how his claim of joy at finding her rings hollow, when in fact his actions show the opposite. Carl recognizes he must learn to love his soul, and admits that he is afraid.

At this, his soul speaks, saying that his fear is proof that he is against her. Carl acknowledges this, admitting that it kills the holy trust between them.

Carl writes about how opening the door to the soul brings the chaos into our well-ordered lives that are so full of “meaning”. He remembers that God is not only love, but also terrible. Yet it is this marriage of opposites, he is learning, that brings forth the divine child.

To become free, Carl says we must not succumb to temptation by the devil, but that we should succumb to temptation by God. Then we will be beyond Christianity and instead become like Christ, who overcame the temptation of the devil but not the temptation of God. It is the proper use of free will that will free us.

Carl had to learn to submit to what he feared and to love what horrified him. Because the soul bestows mercy and salvation, no sacrifice too great. Whatever hinders salvation, Carl tells us, be it virtue or vice, we must discard it.

For six nights the spirit of the depths is silent while Carl vacillates among fear, defiance and nausea, not wanting to listen as chaos floods his ordered mind. Then, on the seventh night the spirit of the depths speaks, telling Carl to look into his depths, pray to his depths, waken the dead.

Carl stands helpless, not knowing what to do. He looks within himself and finds only the memory of the dreams he had written down without knowing why. He wants to run back to the light of day, the land of reason ruled by the spirit of the times . . . but the spirit of the depths stops him, and forces him back into himself.
________

At this point in his journey, Carl is visited by the Animus and given specific instructions to write down his dreams. This is the same Animus who speaks to me, who would speak to all of us if we would listen. Carl hears the instruction and, of course, reacts and fusses at first.

Where are you leading me? Forgive my excessive apprehension, brimful of knowledge. My foot hesitates to follow you. Into what mist and darkness does your path lead? Must I also learn to do without meaning? If this is what you demand, then so be it. This hour belongs to you. (p. 235)

He sees this work of following the Animus and the instructions of his dreams as swaying bridges, not the known life he once had.

When we start this work, we all wonder, as Carl does, Where am I going? Where are my dreams leading me? We always want the answer, when our dreams and the Animus ask us to go on the journey by feeling into what the dreams offer, without having an answer.

We may say, “Just tell me what I need to do and I will do it!” Or, “If you tell me why I should jump off this bridge or that cliff, then I will do it.”

The answer is that the Animus and our dreams will not give us an answer. This work does not work in the mind. If we do the work in the mind, then we will never jump off the bridge with all of our fear and all of the pain in our hearts.

When we do this work with our minds, through an idea of what our dreams are asking, then we end up doing our work by rote. Meaning, as Carl uses the term here, is about the mind that wants to grasp an idea rather than have an experience. Carl acquiesces, although reluctantly.

What is there, where there is no meaning? Only nonsense, or madness, it seems to me. Is there also supreme meaning? Is that your meaning, my soul? I limp after you on crutches of understanding. I am a man and you stride like a God. What torture! I must return to myself, to my smallest things. (p. 235)

How many of us would actually like to return to the small things after a dream in which we are falling through the earth? We all react to this kind of experience in a dream by wanting to just wake up and worry about dinner. “Let’s have mincemeat pie!”

Hear my doubts, otherwise I cannot follow . . . I understand, I must not think either; should thought, too, no longer be? I should give myself completely into your hands – but who are you? . . . I know it’s ignoble to doubt you. . . .  I forgot that you are also one of my friends, and have the first right to my trust. . . .  I recognize my injustice. It seems to me that I despised you. My joy in finding you again was not genuine. I also recognize the scornful laughter in me was right. . . .

If you take a step towards your soul, you will at first miss the meaning. You will believe that you have sunk into meaninglessness, into eternal disorder. You will be right! Nothing will deliver you from disorder and meaninglessness, since this is the other half of the world. (p. 235)

What is Carl preparing us for?

This is not a diatribe about the ego’s struggle to maintain its perfection, even though it may sound like it and many of us will believe that this is what Carl is doing. But, he is not. He is preparing us for what comes next. He is preparing us for the alchemical process.

When we first enter into the process of the dreams and take a step toward our souls, as Carl says, we will miss what it means, because we will no longer be able to think. Without the meaning that our minds so desperately grasp, a vacuum is created. What we have known as “thought” and “meaning” will be changed in the process of the dreams and become something else entirely.

Carl prepares us because we are not ready. We all have ideas and assumptions about what we have done in our lives – what we feel has been good or bad, what we feel was necessary or unnecessary – and the dreams will confront all of our ideas about the “meaning” we have construed about our lives.

When we assume anything about our work or about our lives, we run the risk of adapting in order to meet those assumptions. When we assume we know where the dreams are taking us, we can “decide” to become that, even though it is not the truth of who we are. We can become the thing we assume the dream wants us to become, because we do not want to live in disorder and chaos, even though chaos is the temporary price we pay for enlightenment.

You open the gates of the soul to let the dark flood of chaos flow into your order and meaning. If you marry the ordered to the chaos you produce the divine child, the supreme meaning beyond meaning and meaninglessness. (p. 235)

The supreme meaning is beyond our own meaninglessness at any given the moment. We always think that if we were plunged into the darkness of our own pain, we would never get out of the pain. If we were plunged into the darkness of our own fear, we would never get out of the fear.

Carl worries that if he is plunged into the darkness of his own meaninglessness and chaos, he will never know light, he will never know meaning.

This is not true. But, for that moment, it is exactly what happens. How impatient we are; we always want to have Ariadne’s thread when we go into the labyrinth to face the Minotaur, the thread that guides the hero out after that he slays the Minotaur. We do not want to get lost to the Minotaur, lost in the labyrinth.

In this work, we do not return. We enter the labyrinth so that we can be slain by the Minotaur. The Minotaur is a projection of our own evil, our own monstrousness. The hero in us dies. There is no “back,” no return. But we want to make sure there is a thread, any thread. We want to make sure that we can enter the labyrinth, delve into the mysteries and come back to tell the world. Maybe we could become a star, make a million dollars.

You are afraid to open the door? I too was afraid, since we had forgotten that God is terrible. Christ taught: God is love. But you should know that love is also terrible. (p. 235)

Terrible? Love is only terrible to the ego that wants God to be a certain way so we can keep our illusions alive. Love is terrible because it kills all of the lies of emotional love and all of the feeble attachments that we claim as love. When we have the love of the Divine, we are no longer scared. It is that moment when everything, including our trauma, is revealed.

You dread the depths; it should horrify you, since the way of what is to come leads through it. You must endure the temptation of fear and doubt. At the same time acknowledging to the bone that your fear is justified and your doubt is reasonable. (p. 235)

We must tolerate the fear and doubt that tempt us, knowing full well that we have fear for good reason, and our doubt is reasonable. If they were not, it would not be a real temptation or a real overcoming.

Carl believes that his soul is fearful, but he is projecting his fear onto his soul. We think the soul is fearful because we are scared. Fear is justified because of our traumas. Doubt is justified because, in our traumas, we doubted God.

Christ totally overcomes the temptation of the devil, but not the temptation of God to good and reason. Christ thus succumbs to cursing. (p. 235)

Carl is referring to the moment when, on the cross, Christ called out, “Why hast thou forsaken me!” In that moment, he believed that God was just and would save him. But this is the mind seeking meaning and understanding of what it means to serve God.

This is conditional love.

Many of us, in the moment of our traumas, blamed God because we had conditional love. We did not understand that God’s love has nothing to do with cause and effect, with getting “results” or “answers” or “meaning”. It is not about goals, ideas or agendas. Rather, it is about the continuation of our own passion and nothing more.

You still have to learn this, to succumb to no temptation, but to do everything of your own will; then you will be free and beyond Christianity.

I have had to recognize that I have to submit to what I fear; yes, even more, that I must even love what horrifies me. (p. 235)

For Carl, will is Divine desire. We must accept the fact that the terrible thing that happened is the door to the beautiful person inside. For those who have trauma around spirituality, this means opening to who we were when we were put in danger of trauma in the first place.

Carl speaks about the saint who is disgusted by boils from the plague, but then drinks the pus and finds that it smells like roses.

The acceptance of evil in ourselves actually opens us to the truth that we are not evil. But if we deny the evil in us, we are then actually persecuted by it. If we do not acknowledge it, then what we are saying is that we must not be evil, and thus must always be good. We are left with our minds, with concept, meaning and living a pretense.

We are left with virtues, or our high-minded sense of what God should be or what we should be. There is no difference among someone who robs a bank, someone who pays whores for attention and someone who is God-fearing, goes to church and raises children. This is difficult to understand without understanding that as good as we may be, we are still lost from our souls.

As long as our virtues are more important than our souls, or we assume that our virtues come from our souls, we are lost. Debunking this idea is critical for the dreamwork.

If you believe that you are the master of your soul, then become her servant. If you were her servant, make yourself her master, since she needs to be ruled. These should be your first steps. (p. 235)

We are fools if we believe we are the masters of our souls. The teacher is always the child, and the child is always the perfect teacher. If we are servants of our souls, then we become masters, rather than teachers who teach about the soul without the soul.

Carl ends the chapter by confessing his fear of following the depths. Many of us who work with our dreams have had moments, or even years, in which we did not want to listen to our dreams. Many in the world do not want to listen to their dreams. This is the big No, where we say, I am NOT going to do this. It is reassuring to know that Carl had the same struggle.

 


Comments

03/19/2014 11:37

I really appreciate spending some time to talk about that, I believe firmly regarding this and so really enjoy understanding more about this kind of subject

Reply
03/20/2014 12:14


I have been researching this subject for a few days now for a report I am writing. Your post has been very helpful in this regard. Thanks for another great post.

Reply
03/31/2014 11:40

Your current document can be extraordinarily successful! Getting a gander your operate offers advised us. Required inside a ton from that. I most certainly will free your blog and definately will dependably encounter the next weblog entries.

Reply
03/31/2014 19:26

My spouse and i had been in addition searching for connected material by number of years. you might have satisfied my issue. many thanks with regard to supplying that awesome things to be able to all of us.

Reply

Thank you for the auspicious writeup. It in fact was a amusement account it. Look advanced to more added agreeable from you! However, how can we communicate?, just wanted to tell you, I loved this article. It was practical. Keep on posting!|Hello, I enjoy reading through your article. I wanted to write a little comment to support you|I constantly spent my half an hour to read this blog's articles all the time along with a cup of coffee|I every time emailed this web site post page to all my associates, as if like to read it then my links will too|My programmer is trying to persuade me to move to .net from PHP. I have always disliked the idea because of the expenses. But he's tryiong none the less. I've been using WordPress on various websites for about a year and am nervous about switching to another platform. I have heard good things about blogengine.net. Is there a way I can transfer all my wordpress posts into it? Any help would be greatly appreciated!|Hello! I could have sworn I've been to your blog before but after going through a few of the posts I realized it's new to me. Anyways, I'm definitely pleased I found it and I'll be bookmarking it and checking back frequently!|Terrific work! That is the kind of information that should be shared around the net. Shame on Google for now not positioning this put up upper! Come on over and talk over with my site . Thank you|Heya i am for the first time here. I found this board and I find It truly useful & it helped me out a lot. I hope to give something back and help others like you aided me|Howdy, I think your blog may be having web browser compatibility issues. When I take a look at your site in Safari, it looks fine however, if opening in IE, it has some overlapping issues. I just wanted to provide you with a quick heads up! Other than that, great blog!|Someone essentially help to make seriously posts I'd state. That is the first time I frequented your website page and up to now? I surprised with the analysis you made to create this particular publish incredible. Magnificent task!|Heya i am for the primary time here. I found this board and I find It truly helpful & it helped me out a lot. I am hoping to provide one thing back and aid others like you helped me|Hey there! I simply wish to offer you a huge thumbs up for your great info you have here on this post. I am returning to your site for more soon|I every time used to read piece of writing in news papers but now as I am a user of web so from now I am using net for posts, thanks to web|Your means of describing everything in this piece of writing is really nice, all be capable of effortlessly understand it, Thanks a lot|Hello there, I discovered your blog by the use of Google even as looking for a related topic, your site came up, it appears to be like good. I've bookmarked it in my google bookmarks.|Hello there, simply become alert to your blog thru Google, and located that it's truly informative. I am going to be careful for brussels. I will be grateful if you proceed this in future. Lots of people might be benefited from your writing. Cheers!|I am curious to find out what blog system you're working with? I'm having some minor security issues with my latest website and I'd like to find something more safeguarded. Do you have any suggestions?|I'm really impressed with your writing skills and also with the layout on your blog. Is this a paid theme or did you customize it yourself? Either way keep up the nice quality writing, it is rare to see a great blog like this one these days|I am extremely inspired along with your writing skills as smartly as with the format in your blog. Is that this a paid subject matter or did you customize it your self? Anyway keep up the excellent quality writing, it's rare to peer a nice blog like this one today.|Hello, Neat post. There is an issue along with your web site in internet explorer, may check this? IE nonetheless is the market leader and a good section of other folks will omit your excellent writing because of this problem|I'm not sure where you're getting your info, but great topic. I needs to spend some time learning much more or understanding more. Thanks for great information I was looking for this information for my mission|Hi, i think that i saw you visited my website thus i came to �return the favor�.I am attempting to find things to enhance my web site!I suppose its ok to use a few of your ideas!!|Hello, i think that i saw you visited my website thus i got here to return the prefer?.I am trying to find issues to improve my web site!I suppose its adequate to use some of your ideas!!|Hi there, just became aware of your blog through Google, and found that it is truly informative. I'm gonna watch out for brussels. I will appreciate if you continue this in future. Lots of people will be benefited from your writing. Cheers!|I'm no longer certain the place you're getting your information, however good topic. I needs to spend a while studying more or work

Reply
05/15/2014 21:05

Finally, an issue i always am passionate about. I have looked with regard to information of this caliber going back several hours. Your site is greatly appreciated.

Reply
05/21/2014 19:52


Resources just like the one you mentioned here will likely be very useful to myself! I will post a web link to this page upon my blog. I am sure my visitors will discover that very useful.

Reply
06/06/2014 12:14

I really like your blog.. very nice colors & theme. Did you create this website yourself or did you hire someone to do it for you? Plz reply as I'm looking to create my own blog and would like to know where u got this from. thank you

Reply
07/16/2014 21:46

if I may say something. I am very happy to meet with page yours. I'm glad that this page makes my job so smoothly.

Reply
08/05/2014 21:26

continued success for the website so that it can provide exciting information like this, I'll be waiting

Reply

I am sure my visitors will discover that very useful.

Reply
08/27/2014 11:29

who may or may not be recalling facts or embellishing the story.

Reply
09/23/2014 07:06

What's Going down i'm new to this, I stumbled upon this I've discovered It positively useful and it has helped me out loads. I hope to contribute & aid different customers like its aided me. Good job

Reply

Students should have sense of responsibility. They should not be aggressive in any critical situation.

Reply
12/08/2014 16:41

thank's for info bro..

Reply
12/08/2014 19:23

thank you very much for this info..

Reply
12/08/2014 23:09

Nice post and thanks for information

Reply

This article very interesting and inspiring, nice post

Reply
12/12/2014 16:41

thank's for share info..

Reply
12/13/2014 00:01

Nice info gan

Reply
12/20/2014 00:53

Thanks for information, good job.

Reply
01/22/2015 19:49

kunjungan pagi gan , makasih atas infonya

Reply

It is the best story and characters from the novel red book. i thoroughly enjoyed this story.

Reply
05/19/2015 18:38

Nice post. I learn something totally new and challenging on blogs I stumbleupon everyday. It will always be exciting to read content from other writers and practice a little something from their websites.

Reply
08/30/2015 09:35

Carl writes deeply about people and their behavior which is quite true. If things are done with true hearts everything will be perfect here.

Reply

I am hoping to provide one thing back and aid others like you helped me|Hey there! I simply wish to offer you a huge thumbs up for your great info you have here on this post.

Reply
09/23/2015 11:49

I'm really impressed with your writing skills and also with the layout on your blog.

Reply
10/10/2015 01:35

I am very pleased to be accepted in the Office or largest herbal medicine company in Tasikmalaya this, hopefully I can be successful here amin.

Reply
10/11/2015 17:29

O God, please succeed because I was as young as possible, both parents also live the I amin:)

Reply
10/16/2015 00:03

Trusted Herbal Medicine Center Green World rests on the development of traditional Chinese medicinal herb excellence, led the development of the traditional medicine business scale and strengthening the international position of the Chinese medicine in the world of traditional medicine.

Reply
10/17/2015 01:31

I would like to team up with google, because I wanted to utilize the google keyword so that I'm at rank 1 all.

Reply
10/26/2015 19:04

Today we wish are friends with me o allah, may the sale I exceed 100 bottles so that the salary I ride again Amin:)

Reply
11/02/2015 00:43

led the development of the traditional medicine business scale and strengthening the international position of the Chinese medicine in the world of traditional medicine.
Reply


<a href="http://obatpenyakittbc.com/">Obat Penyakit Tbc </a>
<a href="http://www.obatpenyakitdiabetes.net/">Obat Penyakit Diabetes </a>

Reply
11/10/2015 19:57

The cause of the high liver cancer cases in countries that are still developing is the high hepatitis B and C cases in those countries, including Indonesia.

Reply
12/15/2015 22:05

Haemorrhoids is a swelling that occurs in a rut the rectum. Swelling that contains blood vessels that dilate.

Reply

Your child has difficulty feeding? quiet, starting from now you as a parent do not have to worry with such circumstances.

Reply
04/09/2016 06:03

Very good article, Because it has been giving a lot of
knowledge to me and of course all of the readers of this article. Thanks guys :)

Reply
08/16/2016 18:16

I too am an aspiring blog writer but I'm still new to everything. I'd genuinely appreciate it.

Reply
08/16/2016 18:34

I am very sympathetic to bragas calvin klein your viewpoint. It is very deep and meaningful.

Reply
10/12/2016 00:22

I was very pleased to visit the coolest websites worldwide.

Reply
12/05/2016 00:27

Reply
01/17/2017 01:01

sb game hacker for ios

Reply
01/28/2017 22:46

The right graphics and trade show stands are important for a successful exhibition, but to ensure they get attention, displays also needs the right lighting, audio, and technology. Here are some important tips for using the right audio and visual elements for trade show displays.

Reply
03/28/2017 21:09

Thanks for the sharing

Reply
03/28/2017 21:09

Terimakasih untuk infonya

Reply



Leave a Reply